Taking a Break vs. Rejuvenating

I often find myself "taking breaks" (particularly from my blogs/Tumblrs) simply because I am tired and feel overwhelmed. Ironically, I always procrastinate the work that I feel so "overwhelmed" with doing. I think the idea of doing work is what "overwhelms" me. Yeah. That's it. Then, I like to wait until the last minute to get things done. 

"I work better under pressure..."

 I always feel great after knocking out some assignments or posts shortly before the deadline (or after my personally set deadlines), but knocking things out early always leaves me feeling really good, too. I should do that more often, but--I am a procrastinator. 

As stated above, I'm always "taking breaks" to rebuild my energy and my normal frame of mind, but I rarely use that time to REJUVENATE. For me, taking a break means playing the Sims, scrolling through Tumblr, binge watching television shows online, and/or stuffing my face every two hours. I should put more effort into "pressing pause" as opposed to "hitting stop"--if that makes sense.

I have a paper due in a couple of days and one of the things that we (my class) were supposed to do this week was email my professor telling him what our topics were going to be. I let a day pass without thinking about it. Then, the night before our deadline, I lied in my bed--going crazy trying to think of a topic. You would have thought someone had told me "You must choose between giving up your eyesight or your hearing. You have 48 hours." I mean, I was FUH-REAKING...OUT. Then suddenly, something in my mind told me to Relax.

I rolled over onto my stomach (my favorite sleeping position) and cleared my mind. I literally imagined a windshield wiper "swooshing" out all thoughts of this paper from my mind and I thought about other things--like me giving an acceptance speech at somebody's awards show; Michael B. Jordan holding our newborn baby in his arms--you know, happy and very attainable thoughts. Every time thoughts of that paper popped into my head --swoosh!-- I turned on that windshield wiper. Then, after some time--I don't know how long, but just before I was in those early stages of falling asleep, my topic came floating into my head. At that point, I didn't care anymore, but I did remember it when I woke up the next morning--(thankfully). Hopefully this isn't a "lightning does strike in the same place twice" kind of thing.

The next day went quite smoothly for me. I got other assignments done and was able to sit back and watch my favorite show, Scandal without worrying about an assignment. Now, I've got more things to get out of the way (like drafting and completing that God-forsaken paper), but this time--instead of putting it off and binge watching Twisted or something like that, I'm going to "rejuvenate" for about an hour or two. Not quite sure what I'm going to do yet, but I'm pretty sure Pandora, a book, and a windshield wiper will be involved. 

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I do not own any of the cheesy, but watermarked stock photos above.

--Adrienne (aka "Aige")